I have an obsession with freedom…
For as long as I could remember, I’ve always made choices based on how free it will allow me to be. Never had a “clique”, mostly self-employed or worked from home and I love options! The more choices the better.
I look for freedom in my relationships, work, and even my social activities. I actually have had committal issues as a result.
It wasn’t until recently that I realized that my wanting to remain disconnected as a disguise for “freedom” was a form of resistance.
Resistance is the refusal to accept or comply with something; the attempt to prevent something by action. It’s like I wanted to live in my bubble, away from anything that may elevate me or change me. Of course, there are some things I should avoid, but my behavior was only perpetuating the 17-year-old version of me who had no care in the world and no one to answer to. I didn’t want to accept responsibilities or be held accountable for.
Resistance can show up in many ways: over sleeping; over eating, the need to escape (travel or relocating); partying, drugs & alcohol; watching too much TV or listening to too much music; people pleasing; attachment to your cell phone, etc.
Basically, resistance is a state of mind that distracts you from reaching your fullest potential. The resistance mentality causes you to look for ways to derail yourself by participating in activities that prevent you from thriving.
How is resistance showing up in your life? Do some self-discovery and take note! Then you can abandon resistance and move into acceptance!